Those words…I think everyone longs to have that unconditional love. But what does it mean to give it? What does it mean to love someone so much that nothing can make you stop loving them?
I will never be able to say that I love perfectly. But, unconditional love…many of us do that every day. And it’s hard, when you love someone that can’t seem to receive it most of the time. When you love someone that seems to dismiss the love you give. Who doesn’t realize that the pain doesn’t come from horrible words spoken. It comes from being dismissed. It comes from using the things you love as weapons. There are highs, when the love you give is received and even reciprocated for a brief moment. But then, the you get kicked again.
My hope is that my unconditional love is known and that I am the safe person. Able to dismiss because the love I give will always be there. I need to be dismissed, because the need to impress others, fight for the love of others is the most important thing right now. Or maybe only one side of the story is known, and because I won’t share my side, there is anger.
But the thing with unconditional love is that you can give it, but you don’t have to lie down and take the hurt. You can stand up for yourself. You can dish out tough love, let them know you are hurt. Be willing for them to walk away. And, through that pain, you can still find that sparkle.
Why is sparkle so important? Well, that’s the source for unconditional love. If you don’t sparkle, it is going to be so hard to not be a victim, but to accept the circumstances and try not to take it personally. I can be kind, yet firm. At the end of the day, no matter how far gone, I will always be here to give you love, when you are ready to receive it, and to accept your love, when you are ready to give it. So, I won’t ask to spend time with you, not because I don’t want to see you (I have tried asking), but because I am tired of the rejection. I won’t call or text to see how your day was, because there is never usually a response. But, will message you every day to tell you I love you. I won’t expect much, as I have learned that only gets me hurt. But it is more so you know that when you are ready to give and receive love, I will still be here. I have always been here. I have always loved you, even though sometimes it has been from afar. I will always love you.